Don’t we all analyze the outcome before taking up any activity?
– Joining a gym to lose weight;
– Taking up a course to add a degree next to your name (and in turn in your wedding invitation);
– buying an iPad to look cool showing it off in college;
– avoiding onion in meals because you never know.
But these outcomes that we place so much significance on can prove to make the entire activity or the journey dull and suicide inducing. Because with outcomes or results you are given a wake up call into your potential, your will power, your intelligence, yourself..
Yea yea success can boost your morale, increase your self confidence and blah blah blah, but as you may know by now, I don’t post about positivity. Ever. Maybe that one post I wrote about everyone being beautiful is an exception but now that I think about it – what the hell was I thinking back then? Negativity is my source of inspiration and it gets me through every second of my life. So….
Failures are tough to accept. Period.
The only difference is the way people project it to the world. Swollen, baggy eyes due to crying and lack of sleep is a tell for some people, while for others indifference on their face and ideas of drug overdose on their minds is a way to cope, cos’ let’s face it if you don’t go into a week long depression after failing at something, then either you were forced to take up that activity and you don’t give a fuck about it or you’re basically a human who reacts the same way to cancer and puppies.
But you know what’s the worst thing about failing – the pep talk that follows after.
– try your best next time;
– don’t give up now, you can do it;
– its only food, resist it.
– everything is going to be alright.
You nod and nod and nod but they just keep on coming. Free advice they call it. Sure people who give them have my best interest at heart but empathize yo! Place yourself in my position and tell me whether these “words of wisdom” make any difference just minutes after finding out that the dress you’ve been eyeing for the past couple of weeks is still not gonna fit you, or the promotion that you’ve been expecting ain’t gonna happen this year or your blog posts are always gonna be a level below average (it is what it is). Wouldn’t you much rather lock yourself inside a room and swallow the keys (well, you have to come out sometime right!?).
So people who give a flying fuck about my life – stop with the free advice already and let me deal with my problems the way I want to i.e. get wasted and throw up on my friend’s shoe.
Is that too much to ask?
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